is it ’09 yet?

I am tired. I was tired last fall, but I’m really tired now. By now we all know that the media is not neutral, they pick their champions. But right now, I can’t figure out whose side they’re on.

The NYT decided to blow a whistle on John McCain for having a lady lobbyist. Not the proverbial whistle. But a whistle nonetheless. It seems that maybe this was a preemptive whistle, though, and might’ve worked better with more research prior to actually blowing it.

CNN’s Headline News played a video montage of Hillary and Barack as Tom and Jerry with an Alicia Keys soundtrack (Fallin’) on that loop that they have [which seems to work out to about once every 20min.] I can’t find a link to the vid – but trust me, it is not a life-enriching piece of cinema. It was a slow news day, apparently. [They also reported on the fact that there was NOT a storm in Chicago today – mmhmm]

SNL and Tina Fey dug in for Hillary this weekend:

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But Tina’s parting words created a ripple of backlash across the ‘tubes as bloggers of color and Obama supporters challenged her comment that “b*tch is the new black”. We all know that can be taken two ways, so – when she was on such a good roll for Hill – why’d she have to take it there? For some, her last comment takes away any validity her preceding statements might have had. And it seems like this is Hillary’s problem within her campaign, as well. So much good stuff, but then folks associated with her campaign, or her husband, or she herself, will say/do something that dances across the racist line when talking about Obama.

Then, this evening, I got an email from my dad (he loves to forward stuff, and though he doesn’t do this with any other form of media, he tends to believe everything that he gets in email form) ~ Continue reading

another one bites the dust

Presidential hopefuls are dropping like flies, these days. Can’t say I’m sorry to see Mr. Romney go, except for the self-serving reasons that -had he won the nomination- he woulda been easier to beat. [I know Republicans who would vote Democrat before they’d vote for Romney.] Now, he was funding his own campaign by this point, which I’m sure got expensive, so I can understand why he’d wanna throw in the towel. But the bogus reason he seemed to give was a doozy.

His ‘graceful’ exit was marred only by the bizarre notion he posited as his parting joust at the Democratic Party. He mentioned Hillary and Obama and their history-making roles, and then he made mention that if either one of them won, the terrorists would ‘win’. [or be ’emboldened’, or some such buzzword] Seriously? The terrorists are cheering for either a woman or a black guy to win? Woo.

Here’s an actual quote:

Mitt Romney suspended his bid for the Republican presidential nomination Thursday, saying if he continued it would “forestall the launch of a national campaign and be making it easier for Senator Clinton or Obama to win.”

“In this time of war, I simply cannot let my campaign be a part of aiding a surrender to terror. This is not an easy decision. I hate to lose,” the former Massachusetts governor said.

“If this were only about me, I’d go on. But it’s never been only about me. I entered this race because I love America, and because I love America, in this time of war I feel I have to now stand aside for our party and for our country.” –CNN

Crazy.

Thankfully, at least, Britney’s retreated from everyday front pages news, cuz she’s gonna be institutionalized for another – oops, shoulda checked myself, trent’s got other news.

Oh well, we’ll see how things go.

here’s the thing

I’m cool with Obama. I think he’s a nice guy. And it’s all good, as far as that goes. I do think he’s more of a politician than he’s getting credit for – come on, anyone who can talk to me for 30 min – not say much of anything – and still have me end up wanting to have his baby? that’s a good politician.

But I said I’d decided to vote for Hillary – and I did. [it was actually really awesome to vote for a woman for president – as I think it would’ve been to vote for a black man.] To bring it down to brass tacks, I think she’d represent me better – and that’s what I want. My voice/view represented.

I don’t find a whole lot of difference between the two candidates. But Obama has kinda got me wondering about his loyalty to the party – his platform stance on ‘hands across the aisle’ has me wondering how he’s gonna get that to work. I really do think Hillary’s against the war, and will work to get us out of Iraq. I think she got caught up with a lot of other people at the outset and said some things that continue to haunt her in regard to the war.

I hate that the media’s blowing every interaction between the two of them up into some kind of skirmish…but I get it. A lot of people aren’t comfortable with either one of them. But the picture I’m getting, as the dominoes fall, is that there are a fair amount of white people who are congratulating themselves on backing Barack instead of Hillary. White people who are quite comfortable using euphemisms to say that they think Barack is ‘white-enough‘. [At least, they’re comfortable saying it around me, and I understand – they know I know it’s a euphemism, but I don’t feel like making work into a hostile environment – and they think I’m white-enough, too.] So I make an edgy comment here or there, to let them know it’s not ok to take it so far as to tell me something we couldn’t come back from [I’ll fill this space with an example when I’m not so tired].

But yeah – I’m getting that there are quite a few people [some of whom are racist] who have decided that a black man, is still a man – and that distinction is enough to make him the better choice. I don’t see that as so much progress for racial issues in America. Just a setback – or maybe more of a reality check – for the gender issues we’ve got.

Of course, we can’t rule out the folks that actually, actively HATE Hillary. [There is a lot of that here, where I live. Women and men alike vilify her.] And I just don’t get why they are so angry. I know people who’ve hated her since Bill’s first term – for having the audacity to be more than a[n] (inanimate) fixture in the White House. People who hate her for staying with Bill through the whole ‘Monica-gate’ thing. Aack! Stop hatin!

So, I feel like Hillary would be more loyal to my concerns, but I can’t tell for sure. Not with anyone. I like Obama, too. I like his honesty. His seeming transparency. He looks like he prizes his integrity, and I think that he’s probably felt some of the push we all feel – to live to a higher standard because we’re “examples” for our race. [Boy is that some pressure]

So maybe this post feels like I’m waffling. Maybe I am. I’d kinda like Hillary to win it all this year – I don’t know when there’ll be another viable female candidate for the job. But if Obama wins the nomination, I’m for him with both hands – and both feet, too.

The thing I don’t want is for this nit-picking, drama-baiting thing to continue. It doesn’t make anyone look good.

the demise of intellect

Have you ever found yourself watching a movie with very little merit, but you’ve watched just enough to make you feel like you’re committed – and you gotta keep watching? That happened to me this evening. I didn’t read the description on Netflix very well, and I ended up with a movie instead of a stand-up special: Idiocracy. woo. This movie sucks. The premise, though, was terrifying. Premise being: Humanity begins regressing and intellect begins to disappear as the wisest among us tend to have fewer children, and the least astute are veritable baby factories.

Ever hear of the Quiverfull movement? I’m not saying that participants are necessarily lower in intellect, though some might wish it so. Just … food for thought, I suppose.

Honestly, IQ is a sort of random indicator of intelligence, considering the piece that was on the Colbert Report last night. Apparently, IQs have been steadily increasing, year by year, since the time they began administering the tests. This is no surprise, considering that those ideas/concepts/thought patterns that are most prized will be reinforced within society so that [at least] the most privileged of the society will be exposed to the media/material with more frequency and at younger ages, to facilitate better scores and subsequent opportunities. So in reality, IQ is as much of a construct as anything else. As much as we want it to be a measure of innate ability, it’s not. Thus, patterned differences in IQ should appear across groups that are systematically more disadvantaged: poor, minorities, those with alternate learning methods, and those whose first language is something other than English.

Wow. How did I end up talking about built-in bias in IQ tests? [Especially since, I believe my own IQ may have dropped a few points after watching that movie.] I just think it’s interesting that folks who are supposedly well-versed in the scientific method [though they may not have any social scientific training] pop up every once in a while to talk about how black people aren’t as smart as white people. Yeah – those kind of comments tend to stick with people. I still remember the Bell Curve business. What stands out more than anything to me is how obvious it is to me that environmental factors impact IQ scores so strongly, and how reticent people who benefit from those factors are to admit it. {I actually AM as smart as that paper says I am. Really! Just cuz people taught me how to answer the questions beforehand doesn’t mean anything!}

Blah.

aside: best line of a tv show this week? “Do you wanna go to that party alone with that talking-head of a slut throwing you shade?? I don’t think so.” Cashmere Mafia

The SC Democratic primary is this weekend, and I’ve made up my mind – at least for the primary. I’m going for Hillary. She seems to draw a harder line on things that are important to me. Obama is tempting in some ways, but I’m starting to see a few chinks in the armor, and it’s not … it’s just disturbing to me. I could still see him as President if he wins the nomination, but I’d like to throw my support behind Hillary for this one. The one thing I’d like her to do, is step up and just stop all this war business. Just stop it. As much as you can stop this quagmire. That’d give me more confidence in her. But all in all, I’m happy with my decision.

And yet. I’m troubled. The most recent debate – here in SC – devolved into drama. I don’t think anyone left unscathed, but I know a lot of people have been absorbing the press coverage on the Hillary-Obama segment, and it seems that the press is spinning it in such a way that Edwards is the one coming out smelling like a rose. Obama was leading in SC, coming in to MLK day. It will be interesting to see who actually wins this wknd. I feel like we’ve all been set up, though. That all the hype about ‘an historic bid for the presidency’ was a means to get the two minorities out there sparring – with most of the press coverage. [In my mind, more coverage = more chances to put your foot in it, like Howard Dean’s yelling gaffe.] So, the white dude consistently comes in third, garnering just enough, but not too much publicity. And then, when ‘the woman’ and ‘the black guy’ finally succumb to the pressure and go off on each other, the white guy swoops in to carry the torch and keep the legacy going.

I know I’m not the first person to think of it either. But it scares me. And I don’t even hate Edwards. [Although, if I hear about his daddy working at that mill one more time…]

There is good news, though. Fred Thompson’s out of the race. Yay! One less (One Less!). And Florida will tell the tale of Rudy’s fate – we’ll see. I thought Jon Stewart had a good take on him at the beginning of the week [relevant piece starts at 3:55]

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Whatever happens, I’ll still be here. Crossing my fingers.

what she said

Basically, Rachel summed it up for me. It’s just barely the middle of January [not even really] and I am weary – weary of this political game that’s making me feel like I’m getting played.

A couple weeks ago we were all friends, ready to tear that house down. Long as one of us made it in, we knew we’d be on the right road. Now, all of a sudden, it’s every person for her/himself and God for us all.

I abhor political ads – mostly cuz they have a tendency to go negative, and I feel like going negative means you’re not good enough to win. Sure, there’s more to it than that, and there are nuances I don’t know anything about, blah blah blah. But truth will out, right?

A statement Arianna Huffington made on The Daily Show – oh who knows how long ago – I think it was the ’04 election – really resonated with me. She said something to this effect:
When the house is on fire, you don’t worry about redecorating. You put out the fire.

We all know that the POTUS won’t be able to effect inordinate amounts of change – no matter who it is. Unless of course, we start a war with Iran, we’re attacked again, and Bush decides to seize the gov’t and implement a new monarchy/dictatorship. I’m not ruling that out. But there will certainly be a perceptible difference in our lives when a Democrat is in charge again. If nothing more than the majority of the country will breathe easier. Shoot, after the ’04 elections, there were folks dealing with serious depression. And while I wasn’t one of them [I was sad, but I dealt with it], I can understand.

So, uh, why’s er’body gotta be jumping on some racist shzz, or some name-calling crybaby sexist crap?

Is this the strategy? Tire everybody out to the point where the majority decide – that girl and that black guy – they’ve got too much drama, let’s try this new white dude.

Scary.

mixed bag

  • Hillary’s emotion was not a big deal. [Brit-style: LEAVE HILLARY ALONE!!!]
  • Angelina Jolie: not black. she’s getting an NAACP award for what?!?!?
  • Tiger’s totally cool with the racist commentator-girl … I’m guessing, some days [like me, I guess], you’re just not into getting upset. Especially when you know how freakin awesome you are. And how awesome your life is. And how you could buy and sell any lil person who makes racist comments about you any day of the week. [ok..so maybe I shouldn’t use imagery like buying and selling people in this conversation]
    • [and – um – no…that’s not really like me. i tr to be all mature and crap, but that’s just me holding it in and griping about it to my family instead of on the news.]

in other news,
I’m going to New Orleans for training, right before my bday this year – so that’ll be fun, I suppose. At the very least, I get to chalk one more place off my list [been through LA, but not to NO]. I’m not really the type to commit to some project like visiting all 50 states in my lifetime. I think I could do 25. [Lemme think for a min: AL, AZ, CA, CO, DE, FL, GA, HI, IL, IN, KY, LA, MD, MN, MS, NE, NJ, NM, NY, NC, PA, SC, TN, TX, VA, WV – woo! I’ve already made it! Job well done.]

my eyes are drooping and i gotta get the soup off the stove – laters.

woops – PS: i’m in love with ‘gossip girl’ on the CW. Even with the heinous Haragossip Girls, who have yet to say more than 5 words, I freaking love that show. It’s the reason my DVR still records.

Who will it be?

When I’m not stressed – which is most of the time – I can get some serious relaxation going at any given moment. This translates to a very laid-back outlook on just about everything – even when I seriously care.

So I’m trying to decide: lady or man? black or white? who’s my pick for president? Dennis Kucinich was my pick, but it’s like – he’s SO not viable. When you have to settle for someone [as is normally the case] who do you go for?

I’ve read some articles that suggest many blacks view Obama as the second coming of the King. Most feminists are on board with Hill. I’m not an Edwards superfan, so I’m left between Clinton and Obama. Living in SC, now, I’ve actually got a primary to be going to in a couple weeks – and it seems that by the end of the month, there may be a clear front-runner for the Democrats.

I don’t really feel like any of our top choices would be bad, though, and I’m way more excited to be voting this year than I was in ’04. [which is sad – cuz I really wanted to get Bush out, but Kerry was just not a man with any charisma. I don’t think he really inspired people to get out and vote (even as much as Gore). of course, there were also Republican shenanigans in the area of voter suppression…so, there was a lot going on.] But I think the thing that really has me going this year is the fact that I really believe – either way the nomination goes, we’ll be making history. It’s exciting.

My parents always told me that I could be anything I wanted to be – up to and including POTUS. And I firmly believed that. And now, 25 years after I told that very thing to an obnoxious boy in my kindergarten class, either a woman or a mixed guy is gonna get the nomination. ::crossing fingers:: How can it not feel like I win too?

I guess, if you’re a white dude, this isn’t even blip on the radar. Sometimes I wonder what it must be like…cuz I can’t even imagine it. Even when I was younger, and generally thought of myself as race-neutral, the cognizance of being female and the realization that others would categorize everything I did or said at least partly based on the fact that I am a girl was very strong.

As feminist as my parents tried raise me, by the time I was 9, I was pretending not to know things that I actually knew, when I was talking to boys. After I started college, I think I pretended more situationally – throughout my teen years. Still more to guys than girls. And these days, every once in a while I still catch myself downplaying things that I actually know. But then, I’ve been ostracized for being smart – separate from my race or gender – so, it’s somewhat understandable that I’d try to blend in in that way.

Funny how things go:
The first election I really followed was Bill’s first run – ’92. We discussed candidates in one of my classes.
The first person I voted for – Bill – second run – ’96. That was a great feeling.
And this year, is the first time I get to vote for a woman – Hill.

Who can track the trajectory of a career? When Hillary was championing UniversalHealthcare in Clinton I, did anyone think she’d be back for the presidency in ’08?

Meanwhile, I’m uneasy and unnerved by the fact that we feel so comfortable calling out Obama’s maybe-not-blackness. I don’t know why I have such a strong sense of not calling people out in front of company, but there it is. In a crown of black people, sure, we can discuss it, but with everybody watching? I want that united front thing going on. That, and the fact that I get the impression that it matters less to white people just exactly where he’s from – his skin is brown, so he’s black.

The ‘bootstrap’ ideal thing is what sticks a bit, tho, for me. That tends to be a lot easier said than done. And it leans a lil too close to Cosby and Oprah’s sometime soapbox. To quote my sister: “there is only ONE Oprah”.

I’ll keep working it out though…fairly happy with my choices, as choices go – perhaps my naivete, but I believe they really want to change things.